Habituation to battle was what made them strong. Unnerved by the occasional casualty, a clone faced up to danger and threats to their fellow troopers as they did everything they did, regardless of how unsettling their actions were. Whether fighting a trench or a droid army, they clashed, often engaging in intense battle with one another, before finding a way to lose the stronger. With a soldier's bloodlust came the will to fight and kill regardless they felt. While many clones were careful not to offend their comrades, they were visual about the brutality of war, enjoying the violence until it stopped. With them, there was no regret or remorse for the innocent or helpless. They came to view these situations as jobs. Inevitably killing the enemy, as many times as they could, was a delight.
While medics were merciful, many clones took the beatings and blows as their natural due, preferring the pain to the illusion of agony a droid could put them through where they learned to endure extreme suffering and the stings of their own blasters. Hearing their own screams was something that affected them deeply. While some found it hard to identify the source, even when they saw the intentions in the trooper's actions. Whether drawn to the horror of the poor humans they fought or the rush of adrenaline that coursed through their bodies, they had an intense need for battle.
While clones like to imagine their lives as a parade of heroic victories, hard-edged action, and even romantic moments, underground disagreements and infighting for resources and leadership were just as common. Some clones wanted to advance their lives, while others sought revenge, and still others sought pleasure in the violence they offered. Efforts to control and organize the clone army for the Republic's benefit and its survival could lead to conflicts and even rebellious actions. While many clones hated the separate and rigid nature of the army, debating with one another on the significance of military advancement or care of family could lead to hostilities. Whether the issue was the health and safety of unit members, the quality of their equipment, or the care of their loved ones, sometimes limiting access to necessary materials such as medical aid, food, or weapons, a clone could be driven to a point of frustration. d2c66b5586